This ridiculousness is exhausting me.
So, now it is definitely time for a good old rant.I've made this new goal of using animated gifs every time I want to post something. I feel like it makes this stuff exponentially more amusing.
So, life has been hard. Duh. Sill trying to figure it out. I'm not quite sure what i'll be doing yet. I just wish the other elements in my life would simplify. So much unnecessary extra difficulty. Ugh. First, I am so tired of going out of my way for people. I go seriously out of my way for a lot of the people in my life and they are totally unappreciative. It's really a bummer that I spend so much energy on doing these things and instead I am treated like this after.
Second, I've been really trying hard to find happiness. I just can't help but feel that I need out of this place, position, and/or point of my life in order to be happy. So, I am trying my best to work on things in me. I think changing my outlook would really benefit me. I feel like it would really help this depression wave turn around. However, it's really hard when everyone around me has such a negative outlook and self-image. I can't quite find a way to break through it. On that note, I really enjoyed this article: http://www.purposefairy.com/3308/15-things-you-should-give-up-in-order-to-be-happy/
Lastly, I know I've been much different lately. I think this has left people with a really bizarre image of me. This is especially true for new people in my life. However, I am so disappointed to see how many people assume such negative things. It's really a sad outlook. I just keep trying my best to not care about this perturbed and distorted image.
I've just really been having a hard time being extraordinarily careful about how the things I do will look. I really think it's not a bad thing either. I truly hoped it would help draw in people whom could easily judge a situation, place, or person, but don't. I find fascination and deep respect for people whom go against the norm and are deeply open-minded. Being around that would be such a positively influential experience. I guess, I just feel like I have enough exhausting elements of my life and would love some enlightening ones. I guess I just have to live my life with the wise words of sir Dr. Seuss.
"Those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter."-Dr. Seuss.
